Unless my surrender is immediately followed by willingness to do it someone else’s way (asking for help and taking it), then I have not yet reached a point of surrender – I have only for a moment admitted defeat and despair and continue to live uncomfortably in the denial that tells me it is bad, but not bad enough to give up my ways and my thinking.
Surrender yet may still come. I’ll recognize it when it is quickly followed by action to accept another’s way of doing and thinking. The consequences of my past may still be at my door, yet I will sense hope that my future will not add to the pile of worry and fret. And I will live more squarely in the day of choice with promise of a different tomorrow than before my personal turnstile of surrender.