We are going to Camp Creek (near Bryan/College Station) today to visit friends. From there we will be heading to Saint Jo as a sister-in-law’s sweet father, Vernie, passed away rather unexpectedly yesterday. We don’t know the details of the services yet but will leave from Camp Creek when we do. It may be Wed or Thursday by the time we get back. Continue reading Near-Perfect: thinking of Vernie
Category Archives: Meditations
All Saints Day 2013
Those who knew Trudy will recognize these; they are cherished reminders of my sister’s faith, curiosity; love of nature – God – learning – beauty. And her sister too.
Tomorrow is All Saints Day. Continue reading All Saints Day 2013
Good morning in Kyle
It’s our second and final morning in the country. I am up earlier than I would have liked and a bit restless. Nothing strikes my fancy for reading, and I can’t imagine writing anything of interest. Now or ever.
I have mixed feelings about this central Texas B&B. The little house is cozy, Continue reading Good morning in Kyle
Lake Views: a Tribute to Vernie
We never finish crying over the loss of our parents. We only stop crying out loud. Continue reading Lake Views: a Tribute to Vernie
Trudy’s Birthday – also Earth Day
It’s difficult to remember Trudy today with the lightness of the Spring in which she arrived. It has not been long enough for me to forget the physical torture and emotional languish of her battles with cancer and heart breaks. I also can not dismiss the roles I played in the later – I was a joy and a thorn at times in the life of my sister.
I hope to find and wear today a pin that I gave Trudy one birthday; it’s in the shape of the Earth and has the word F-R-A-G-I-L-E embedded into its metal. Continue reading Trudy’s Birthday – also Earth Day
bT – aT
It concerns me to think that I may have to accept that I will never be the same again: bT vs aT (before and after Trudy). It conflicts with what I thought I was accepting – that if, and since, I am still here God must have a plan for me. Couple this with retirement, and getting it stuck in my head that I only have 10-15 years left – well, I’m closing down before the bell has rung. And that doesn’t seem right. Taking up space, and air, and resources – this place on earth without contribution? So maybe it’s as simple as purpose. Whatever it is, my heart’s not in it. And that doesn’t seem right either.
I miss my family. Maybe it’s that simple even as it remains that un-solvable. Please Lord, make me a channel of your love and caring and peace on earth today, and please help me to look for You today and feel You in my life today in ways that lift me to Your purpose. Help me be present to Your now and Your purpose for me.
Anniversaries Melt our Hearts
Anniversaries melt our hearts – pooling at our Feet.
I’ve had a hard time with missing my sister today. It’s as if the annual anniversary has melted my heart and puddles at my feet. A dam I didn’t even know existed over these past months has broken – swoosh, swoosh and more tears. Continue reading Anniversaries Melt our Hearts